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so tommorow looks like the beggining of something beautiful. i'm going to meet a tenant in a 2 bedroom 2 bath condo about staying in the 2nd room with its own bathroom. on 4th and mothafucking cherry. the HEART of the gay area. lets pretend i'm not excited ok? haha. i'm not expecting anything, its just nice to have positive things come your way you know?

in other news, i've decided on my first 2 tattoos! i know, sexy right? lets start with the simple one. behing my right ear, i'm going to get the token chanel symbol! WOOT. my idol, my muse, and my inspiration, coco chanel. i live by one of her quotes, "to be irreplaceable, one must always be different." she is an inspiration to the fashion world. she broke away from stereotypical fashion and became a breathe of fresh air to the world. because of her nonconformist ideas and designs, she has become one of the few people in history to truly make a difference, with just fashion alone. which is why i am so enthralled with who she was and why i live to be as big as she was. just to be different an change the world. maybe not necessarily the same way, but in my own way. so her logo stands clear as a symbol of differentiality. which is why it'll make a hot ass tattoo!!!!! i'm going to get it soon! like maybe august.

the 2nd tattoo, a bit more personal and outrageous, is going to be a 21st bday present to myself. we all know i rock my own label online and screename wise. will of hearts™ has been with me for almsot 3 years now. well back when ilived with my parents, i made my logo out of katakana. the japanese symbols used for translating english into japanese. well i'm going to tattoo it on my left arm.

wi ri a mu no <3

5 symbols and a heart. the heart is going to be either a few different colors, pink, purple, red, or maybe even the colors of the rainbow. inside the heart i'm going to have none other than hello kitty herself. ya damn right. scene bitch much? i love hello kitty. she's fucking fierce. don't hate its my gay side. she's not going to be colored in, just an outline. but her bow will be colored in. purple not the usual red. that way it'll show on my skin. i'm still deciding on how big the entire tattoo is going to be. if its going to be my whole wrist or just a part of it.

i'm looking for recomendations of where to get my tatts at. idont want them all fucked up. seriously. if you recommend anyone let me know!!!!!!


other than that, my birthday is getting closer and closer. almsot 21 people! stay tuned for invites to the dinner party and week festivities. i need road dawgs fo sho.






lastly, i've made a huge decesion. about boys of course. after finally realizing the edgar thing was a waste....after being used for just my dick, and after realizing my potential, i'm going to change myself completely. not and upgrade or a downgrade. i'm going to completely revamp my persona into something exactly like what it is now. just way way way more user friendly. i'm going to show off everything i want in a guy, while being everything i want my guy to want. its gonna be a lot of work but, it'll be worth it, to myself! until then i guess i'm off limits. i'm not ready for what i'm looking for, and until i am, all i see is the reflection in the mirror.


finding yourself is harder than you think
your always hiding in your other other best place
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